A lot of you have been emailing me privately over the past week or so, since I started to talk more about how Allie has a new lover in her life. Most of your questions have been, more or less, about how does it feel?
How does it feel to be a cuckold now, David?
What’s been going through your mind now that Allie is fucking again?
The truth is, I couldn’t feel better. But the feeling, is indeed, jealousy. How can I reconcile the two, you might ask?
I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately, as you can imagine. Why would I enjoy feeling jealous? I wrote a memorable post on cuckold jealousy last year, but now I’m still dealing with my own personal issues.
Time and time again, I’ve counseled readers privately with their own feelings of jealousy as they explore their own cuckold / hotwife experiences and fantasies. I can attest that I had kind of forgotten how particularly powerful they can be. What is it about jealousy that could possibly be enjoyable though?
So, I started thinking about why people might enjoy other kinds of fetishes. You know, like spanking, or water sports, or extreme humiliation. Of course, there are tons of reasons why people might be into whatever fetish they crave, so I’m not even going to attempt to try to generalize them all.
One thing got me thinking though. Fetishes do generate incredible emotional responses, some we might classify as good, and some we might call bad. But all of them are very powerful emotions. It could be, that for some people, the raw power of a particular emotion–even something we might at first consider bad or harmful, could become a turn on. Just like the person that enjoys being spanked–and begins to get off on the pain of it–a person could begin to be turned on by the feeling of jealousy.
So, watching my hot wife get fucked, or, as in the case so far with Mark, hearing about her getting fucked stirs up some incredible pangs of jealousy, not to mention some incredibly hot views. And that jealousy, in turn, drives my passion for Allie.
There are other reactions I have in addition, sure. I love seeing her being a slut, and I love watching her in action. I love the buildup to her leaving on a date, and I love the play-by-play I get when she gets home. And there are other perks as well.
What do you think? Think I might be on to something? Post your thoughts in the comments and I’ll try to keep up with the conversation.